Since the beginning of 2018, I’ve been writing a liberation list for the new year, instead of resolutions. Inspired by Cate Huston, it’s a list of things I want to free myself from in the upcoming year. These are things I’m going to leave behind in 2019, things that I’m absolutely over. At the end of each year, I do a little private review of how successful I was, and every year I’ve done a damn good job, considering I also don’t usually revisit the list throughout the year. Here’s the list for 2020:
I’m liberating myself from…
Finding/telling narratives about other people’s behavior and thoughts without talking to them.
The idea that I have to keep my body at factory settings.
All the things I own that belonged to [deadname] that don’t belong to Fen.
Fear of editing my work and asking for feedback.
The hourly retail worker mindset of needing to be visibly productive every moment of the work day.
Fear of getting caught by authority while doing something weird or abnormal.-
Unethical companies that are really just a Rube Goldberg machine of human suffering.
I keep coming back to this idea of a digital shabbat, where I follow some sort of ruleset for low social media/tech use from sundown Friday through sundown Saturday.
Some ideas of what this could mean:
no twitter, reddit, pinterest or other social media
put phone in greyscale mode
use an alternate login profile on my devices, which has way fewer things installed
no devices or screens a half hour before bed and none until a half hour after i wake up
no mindless browsing
no solo video games
no solo TV, movies, etc
minimize discord use
Things that are okay on digital shabbat:
using tech for drawing or writing
using tech to look up information (ie wikipedia, google maps)
using tech to listen to podcasts, music, or audio books
signal and discord to communicate with friends
playing video games with friends
watching TV or movies with friends
Essentially I’d only be using technology to make things, connect with friends, and very mindfully consume. I’d be doing restful things on Shabbat, instead of mindlessly indulging. It’s not so much about not working, but instead slowing down and taking care of myself.
I’ll think about this more, maybe talk to Adira about trying it out together in our own ways. Obv I’d start the night still by lighting Shabbat candles still, and eating delicious food haha.