cw: discussion of trans stuff and health
as i think i explained it to my boss, physical health issues + mental/emotional health issues + the world sucks to be trans in right now = hahahahahah i’m not doing the best.
around a month ago ish, i got my cool new tattoo of some plants, and then had an appointment at howard brown to start HRT. we wound up learning that i have a mystery heart condition and they recommended i not start T yet. so not only am i in Big Dysphoria Zone but also i have a weird heart problem to worry about! i’ve got a cardiology appointment set for next week, but it feels like T is just never going to happen, so that’s cool.
on the plus side, dee and i (with the help of a lot of friends) got our house rearranged and we’re sitting at like 85% complete. i got a new PSU for my gaming rig, just in time to end up working from home for weeks in a row because my anxiety and depression have been so bad.
BUT tomorrow i’m going on an amtrak trip to detroit to speak at a conference, so that should be nice. hopefully i can keep myself together and not dissociate the entire time!